…Enjoying this bouquet of sunflowers. They’re so cheerful and happy.
…Painting my nails. Couldn’t think of a better day to wear Deborah Lippmannâ€™s Happy Birthday.
…Searching for shoes. And thinking I might need to break my “You’re only going to buy shoes you can walk in” rule for this pair of BCBG platforms.
Dress by BCBG
…37 years young. I’ve officially entered my late 30s.
I still feel like the same happy-go-lucky me, but things cross my mind now that never used to. When I spend time with my childhood friends, or when I’m with my parents, sometimes it hits me — we won’t always be together — and I have a hard time imagining my life without them.
There was a time in my life when I craved constant change, but not anymore. Now I find myself hoping and praying for things to stay the way they are for as long as possible.
…Realizing that I may never feel ready to have children. I always thought I’d just wake up one morning and know that I was ready, because that’s the way it happened when I knew I was ready to marry El Hub, no joke. But it still hasn’t hit me yet, and I wonder if it ever will.
Sometimes the thought of not having kids makes me very sad, but other times I’m okay with it. Part of it is because I’m terrified that I wouldn’t be a good mother. I don’t know if I’m very maternal by nature, unlike my friend Jen, who was born to be a mom.
Will I ever feel ready? I don’t know.
…Taking it all in. I have so much to be thankful for. I feel blessed and very lucky, and I want to thank you for always being there, for being around these last five birthdays and the other days along the way.
Your friendly neighborhood beauty addict,