For the longest time — for MONTHS after Connor was born — and this may or may not sound weird, but whenever I’d take a shower, I’d cry.
Like, bawl my eyes out. My hormones were redonk for months after Connor’s debut. Also, every time I touched or glanced down at my emergency c-section scar, I broke down. I would start thinking about that night and the nurses and the fear and the doctors coming into the room to quietly discuss serious options… It was too much.
Most of the time, I was able to focus on the fact that Connor was born healthy, and that would calm me down, but standing there under the water when you’re looking at your naked body with nothing between you and a huge scar, and wishing that things had turned out differently… I felt let down by my body. It’s hard to explain. Anyway, I couldn’t even talk about it for a really long time.
Like they say, though, time heals all wounds. I’m no longer crying in the shower anymore, yay! It’s back to being the fun, safe, happy place it used to be. 🙂
Now, let’s talk about some bad-@ss body products from Caudalie.
Caudalie is a French skin care line (available at Sephora) known for adding antioxidants from the grapes in their vineyards in France. They make some of the best moisturizers and body products out there, like my old-school faves, their Vine Body Butter ($34) and Hand and Nail Cream ($15). Both are righteously rich and thick — so rich that you can pretty much kiss those scales on your shins buh-bye.
When you step out of the shower after a day at the pool and your dry skin desperately needs moisture, or if you just need some heavy-duty hydration, they’re great.
They both smell light and fresh, like soft white musk and fresh grapes, and that scent is also present in some other Caudalie products I’ve been using lately, their Nourishing Body Lotion ($30) and Foot Beauty Cream (because, obvs, your feet deserve to be pampered, too).
The Nourishing Lotion is thinner than the Vine Body Butter, so it absorbs quicker, but it’s just as moisturizing. And the Foot Beauty Cream ($15) feels like a thick paste. It takes a while to work in, but it’s totally worth it because it makes every part of my feet — even my rough outer heel (a.k.a. the “Parmesan cheese rind of my body”) — feel fabulously soft.
The shower gel contains moisturizing aloe vera, and it’s a no-soap formula, so it’s sans bubbles (takes a minute to get used to), but I love the scent. It has notes of bergamot, iris and white musk, and it layers well with the fragrance, too, which is like a light eau du toilette. Fresh and feminine, like something from over at Tocca.
Your friendly neighborhood beauty addict,